11-24-13

if i were to show all the feeling that i have to those i love i would be constantly crying and curled up in a ball. i try to make it through without the pain being all that i am. today is a BAD day. I have taken several meds to try to dull the pain but it is no use. i hurt all over and nothing is helping it. i may go back to bed and sleep just so i can't feel it. this is no way to live. I can so understand suicide as an option to the pain like Cindy's cousin John. Just peace and no pain for a while. it is amazing what years of pain can make you tolerate.