not feeling well

Did not go to school yesterday. I had a stomach ache and was constipated. Still not feeling too great. I am really really tired.

sleep

I have not slept well the past 2 nights. I woke up about every hour on the hour.

headache

I have a headache. It could have been the chocolate or the dairy.

barometric pressure

I have a beginning of a headache....hope it will not be migraine. My neck and shoulders are sore. My tummy was not feeling good yesterday.

depressed

I have been feeling really down. I wonder if the Cymbalta is working. I have suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I think it would just be great to let go. I cannot leave Janessa. She keeps me here.

oops

I guess I should've kept up with this blog. I have had such a year and it is not over yet. I will try to write more about days when I have symptoms and the triggers and effects.

Panic Episode

I had a panic episode last night. I am going to try and track these events and the trigger of them. They seem to be getting worse, which is why Dr. Tadlock changed my meds to Cymbalta. I am not real sure that this working. I have had more suicidal thoughts since taking this drug.

It has been nearly a month since the last really bad panic episode. Janessa was talking to me on the phone about school prob. at USM and it just went on and on......I finally had to tell her buy because I was in full panic.

I feel like I have been hit by a truck. I hurt all over and am very sleepy. My head hurts. These are the sucky after effects of an episode. It tires me out completely. The adrenalin pumps so much that my body takes days to recover.