9-26-13

the pain is getting to me emotionally
if i cry i don't think i will stop so i don't cry i just suffer it in silence
no one wants to hear about my pain so i need to just shut up about it

9-19-13

last night my back was knotting up like crazy so I went next door and Mom rubbed it for a good bit. I am hurting so much in the mornings when i get up.

I have these big bruises on my stomach area and no idea where i got them from

Today i have to sit in a meeting half the day in a student desk. I imagine this will be difficult since i won't be up walking around

Tomorrow I have to go to County Office for a meeting. ALL day

This has got to start getting better or i am gonna have to start taking more pain meds

9-17-13

the pain is getting no better
mom and daddy want me to go to Dr. North but I am afraid of changing docs
i cannot afford more tests and changing meds will be nightmare of EPIC proportions
Maybe this pain is my new normal and I just have to adjust to this level of pain

sucks